waiting...waiting...waiting...

UPDATE: Gates Wesley Warwas was born at 4:46pm at 7.5lbs 21in. All is well in Alaska with those we love.

Emili went in yesterday around 2:00pm our MN time. It is now 8:38pm the next day. The last text I received from my brother was a couple of hours ago saying that she would be going in for a c-section. We have not heard from him since.

When I read the text out loud at dinner, Heath and I gave each other a glance and in that one look a wave came over of the table. A wave of emotion: uncertainty, fear and a sense of loss. It is funny how other people's birth events can bring you right back to your own. We both looked at Rowan with spaghetti smeared across his face replaying the events in our minds. All going so well with him during labor/pushing and then POW, oxygen is low, not liking how this is progressing, c-section NOW! I am thankful for our OB's ability to call the shots, truly I am. I am also thankful for having my family and friends close to me.

I knew this would be hard being far away, but this waiting...ahhhh this waiting is SO HARD! I want to be there for my brother and sister as they come out of the fog of what in the world just happened?

Tonight we are snuggling in bed with the phone close by waiting...waiting...waiting to hear from our family thousands of miles away. Praying for mommy Emili to be healthy, for Daddy Adam to have the energy he will need in the days to come and for our little nephew.