Thoughts from this mommy of two boys...

Well, it has been 1 week since Rowan joined our family. Here are some reflections I have had that I would like to share:

*I don't think I realized how much I missed out on bonding wise while Brevin (I did not know any different) was in the special care nursery. Those first minutes, hours and days together in our room in the hospital with Rowan were priceless and amazing. I will treasure it always.

*This pregnancy was definitely filled with ups and downs that I didn't experience with Brevin. I truly think it was a blessing to have to slow down and "let go" of things these last months. It was a blessing because as I recover from this C-Section it has helped me not be too hard on myself and lower my expectations. As long as my family is loved, the rest (dishes, cleaning, laundry, tasky stuff) doesn't really matter. What matters are these precious moments with my boys that I will never get back.

*Situations like this make me laugh and glad that we don't take things TOO seriously in this house: In a matter of about 45 seconds, I was projectile pooped on by Rowan, while Heath hit his funny bone on the crib and Brevin was trying to put his jammie shirt on his legs. It was chaotic and less than ideal, but boy did we laugh at ourselves and what a circus it was. :)

*I am so thankful for the family and friends that have stepped up to give us love. We have been showered with encouragement, meals/desserts and listening ears. We have laid in bed every night thanking God for the people he has put around us during this season of life.

*My love for Heath has just gone to a whole new level. I know he has been stretched in the last week like no other time before. He has been so SO good at caring and encouraging me. He has been spending time getting to know Rowan, but the part that is so inspiring to me is his intentionality with maintaining some normalcy with Brevin. All the while doing LOTS of laundry (Rowan poops A LOT and has graced us with his pee more than a few times), house stuff, keeping up with finances. He gets up with me so I don't feel alone at 3 in the morning. I am not sure in our young love that I could have even begun to foreshadow what an amazing leader of this household he would/could be.

*Our worries of our hearts being big enough to love Rowan the way we love Brevin have vanished. Just like everybody says, there is room and it just happens. He is such a little honey that we are both excited to see grow and show us what he has to bring to our family.

So there you have it...the ramblings of my mind after 1 week of being a mommy of two. I look forward to making a full recovery so I can get to bug hunting with Brev and showing Rowan this world of wonder.